What am I scared of. Everything, it seems, but especially starting. And the deadline, having to get it done in a certain amount of time. And competition, the idea that there are writers everywhere, working for the same goals, writers with better confidence, long claws, and talent. My own hesitation scares me, the fact that I linger so long at the door, afraid to go in, that by the time I make up my mind the party is over, everyone has gone home.